Update numero dos

So, it is July and I have about 44 days before I am in the state of Texas for the first time. Woah, buddy. I'm extremely excited and yet overwhelmingly nervous. It's so crazy how time is going by. Sometimes I want to freeze it and just pause for a moment to enjoy where I am right now. God is teaching me to live in the moments and not to waste my days away thinking and worrying and processing about the future, but to just do and live.

Sarah, my HA director, called me today. She said I have $2440 in my account as of now. That is not counting the money I have received from graduation, but I think I'm going to use most of that for my personal expenses through out the year. They said you should have between $50-$100 per month for personal expenses.

Currently I have done a yard sale and sent out letters to get to my goal. Future plans: I am going to have a Premier Jewelry Party on July 9th so I'm stoked about that. A spaghetti dinner is underway which I am equally stoked about. I have been trying to get a car wash going at either Walmart or Lowes. Walmart shut it's door on me today saying that they don't do those for individuals and that I'm not helping the community. psh! haha. I keep playing one-sided phone tag with the guy from Lowes Food. haha, one-sided meaning I keep trying to call him and he is never there. :P BUT the store told me he was going to be there tomorrow morning so I'm going to head over there in the AM to see what's up. If not, I will go to Eckerd or Walgreens or Clayton High School if necessary! haha.

But in all that, God is teaching me to be more faithful to Him. I checked my e-mail for the first time in forever today and found two e-mails from those that have been through the Honor Academy that live in Raleigh! They got my name from Alicia Moore who I had been talking to about it. It was extremely encouraging and real. A little while after I got off the phone with Walmart with the bad news, Sarah, my HA director, called and was encouraging. I asked her how much I had and she told me and it was enough to get in, in August. It was just like God was saying, "Hey, I'm going to supply all of your needs. I have you."

I've been thinking about Proverbs 16:3 a lot. Sometimes I have doubts that I made the right choice...and I don't think that's a bad thing exactly because in the back of my mind I know this is right. But I don't think it's the Only right thing. I believe that God would have blessed it either way. I believe that unless I had totally turned my back on God I would stay in His will. Though I do believe God led me down this path..through those little acts of obediance like looking on the computer for Sarah and falling in love with it. That's why I'm glad I made this choice. It feels completely thrilling trusting in God to fill my needs like this.

I know that this step is going to be an extreme growing experience. I know that it won't be a "magical" growing experience however. It's not just going to magically transform into something amazing...it's going to be tough. And it's going to be life: a life waking up at 5:00 in the morning on work-out days to run, a life with 5 other girls who I have to get along with and share things with, a life away from my home, a life away from everyone that I've known for so long and who I care about. It's going to be tough but it's going to be amazing. Because God is orchestrating it. Thank You.

I am making a commitment to discipline myself. I am going to limit the time I spend on the computer...I know, silly that I have to do that, but I really am not that disciplined. I am going to start running so I can start getting in shape and not completely DIE when I get to Texas (the pain I felt after running in the mornings at the beach was a preview of how I'm going to feel if I don't start shaping up). I'm going to work on having more of a Servant's heart towards my family especially. I don't show how thankful I am for them near enough.

I'm asking that you keep me accountable about this. :) I need it. aha.

Thank you all for all of your prayer and support! Yall are awesome! :)